Old Too Soon, Smart Too Late

"Old too soon, smart too late..."

Since my last two blogs which dealt with my optimism and future hopes, I'm afraid to report that once again these dreams have been dashed. Some may say who was I really kidding, as in reality the situation was never really going to work out, and my past experiences would've probably taught me that too.
Still, I can't help being an old hopeless romantic, although in hindsight maybe I'm just an old fool.

"There's no fool like an old fool...", but there's no need for me to elaborate too much on this, as I know that I can be too open for my own good sometimes, and I'm also aware that I continually wear my heart on my sleeve. Needless to say I've made countless sacrifices and compromises previously in my life, which have only resulted in heartache and debt, but enough-is-enough.
Now that I've finally found a place that I am happy in and that I can genuinely call home, I am reluctant to make any further personal sacrifices. After five months in my small, yet luxurious apartment, I remain content in the knowledge that this is where I belong. I have a good, steady job with great friends, so it's great to say that I've now got some stability in my life.

I also have to be realistic that at 45 years of age, I know that at my time of life now it is hard to start all over yet again. Finding work at my age can prove very problematic, and due to the aforementioned debts I haven't the means to do so even if I wished to. In three years time it will be a totally different matter, as I will be completely debt free, so I just need to bide my time and remain patient.

With my theme of my blogs supposedly being tall tales and short stories, I'm aware that I may have deviated away from the subject matter of late. But I guess the moral of this story is that I should be grateful for what I've got ~ I've come a long way from where I found myself three years ago, as I've evolved from rock-bottom to contentment and relative personal happiness. I know that I will always be fine and that I'll continue to enjoy life and make new friends along the way.
Therefore I'll forever remain an upbeat, happy-go-lucky, soppy, old hopeless romantic, who just happens to be currently flying solo!

Finally, good luck to my great friend Trace for her impending house move ~ wishing you, Gar & the girls much happiness in your new home. And many thanks as ever to Elona for her continual support and friendship ~ sorry we couldn't meet up last week but I look forward to catching up with you next month.

Steve M

A New Year Wish

Hi,

A belated Happy New Year to everyone!

Following on from my last blog entitled, 'A Change Of Heart', I'm pleased to report that I am extremely happy in the knowledge that there is an angel in my life, albeit one who's far, far too many miles away from me for my liking. But, there is comfort in knowing that our feelings transcend the distance between us, and that the hope and belief remains strong that we can be together soon.

With regards to my blogs, I'm going to be adopting a sense of a 'less-is-more' attitude from now on, resulting in minimal Facebook postings and a reduction in the published blogs that I produce...hopefully it'll be a case of 'quality-not-quantity', and what little I do actually write will have a certain impact when read...but I'll leave that up to you to decide?

It's often been said that maybe I'm too open and honest for my own good; that maybe I wear my heart on my sleeve too readily; that maybe I try too hard sometimes; and that maybe I care too much too often... but this is just the way that I'm made, and I'm far too old to change my ways now anyway!

To all the non-believers, and the unromantic sceptics & cynics, I have one simple message...
Why shouldn't I persue the chance of love & happiness, even if circumstances currently conspire against us?
If our feelings are strong enough and our love is true, then no obstacles put in our way should prevent us from being together one day, and being able to enjoy a happy life.
I'd much rather take a risk in life than sit on my backside doing nothing and wondering, what if...?

So I'll finish up by saying that if I could have just one wish this year, it would be for my angel & I to be able to share a magical future together.
I'll never stop believing that this will happen, I'll keep the faith alive, and I'll always hope that all of our dreams will be realised in 2013.

Until next time...whenever that may be?
Take care & best wishes to you all.

Steve M